it's been crazy...i'm not gonna lie...

one month...one week...and all this craziness will be a thing of the past...not sure whether to be thankful...or sad...

it's been a crazy ride...that's for certain...and there's been so much drama...and craziness, i don't think i can take much more...i think i've had enough to last me my entire lifetime...and then some...but through it all i keep reminding myself that the prize at the end of it all, is enough, and is worthwhile...i'm marrying the man of my heart and dreams...my best friend...so yah...i'm in it for the long haul...even if it comes with a little bit of a freak show...

i've learned a lot along the way...what have i learned? well...i've learned who i can and cannot lean on...sheesh there are shoulders out there, i didn't even know i could rest my head on for a while...and then there are shoulders i thought i could use...but...clearly, i was wrong and mistaken...i thought i would be a little less crazy...but i think i've walked in the shoes of brideszilla, a few times...i guess it just comes with the package...i've learned to laugh at things i normally wouldn't have laughed at...and i have learned to make decisions, i usually am really bad at making decisions...i've learned that even the good vendors, the really sweet and kind ones...well, they're not THAT great...and they definitely keep you on your toes...and i have learned that weddings, well, they're not as fairytale as i once thought they were...they're hard to pull together...it's like sweating blood sometimes...and i've learned that it's me against the world (sometimes)...i also learned that when it comes to the dress...you'll know she's the one when you see her...the dress i thought i wanted, well it wasn't meant to be...the dress that made me cry...she's the winner...and you'll all get a chance to meet her soon enough...

i have a few more things i need to do before the big day...i need to buy a vintage suitcase...and some candles...antique windows...and a shrug for the church...i need to hear back from about 60 more guests, even though today is the deadline (sheesh!)...john needs a shirt and bow tie...i need to find a sitter for jackson...my little schmacks...i am so gonna miss him that day...we need to decide on a honeymoon spot...(doesn't help that i am afraid of flying...ugh)...

so yah...i'm well on my way, i think...so that's my little update...i promise to be back after the wedding full throttle...i've just been a little crazy busy...y'all don't even know the half of it...haha!

anyhoo-hoo...one thing i wanna say...i have been reading all of your blogs daily...just haven't been commenting...it is what it is...i don't have much brain power these days...i'll definitely be back full throttle late fall...love you all...and have a wonderful september...